 Thursday, October 15, 2009
 at 4:05 AMpeople, i have loads of troubes. i dunno tt i'll do so badly. nv in my life was i defeated so hard. it was somewhere you expected before. now---never. why? had i learn my mistake? if i had i would be reading all the freaking and dull-looking notes, right? can anybody comfort me? can anybody just tell me tt i didn'tdo badly? but tt would be deceiving myself. wat's the point of saying it now? wat's the point? it's over. but it still feels awful inside. doesn't it? imagine getting hit by piece of stupid shit when there're so many people, BUT YOU???? Indignant rite? i wanted to give up, really. but tt means i'll be shameful. i'm shameful tt i get such results. but, wat really pains is tt when u're really working hard at it, sb just wished to pull you down. life's like tt. you'll feel small suddenly. imagine you're in a group of people who knows, violin, piano, drum or watever instrument, and you know none? you feel tt you're always beneath them. i wanted to change it. really. but just can't. while people just gain their popoularity, build up their confidence, our confidence, wish and everything just--"Bang"---crushed into pieces. i'm not trying to act emo ok, i really wished to pen down my thoughts. i feel guilty to my parents, teachers and everybody. but why? why would i feel tt way though i tried real hard? as our confidence and everything make way, theirs would too. Hopefully, for the remaining papers, i would do better. i'm just too ashamed. i'm not trying to act as if i'm faking,, but if you were me, i'm 100% sure tt you'll feel the same way too. comfort, comfort, comfort. i must find comfort. i must find a way. i'll blog tomorrow thx to the flas assig. hopefully, if things turn better, i'm gonna keep this blog for the rest of my life. Labels: ALICIA:( five senses, see smell hear touch taste |
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